Yesterday, i figured something out which I thought was very important. It sort of came to me after I realized, that I really hadn't enjoyed myself for a long, long time. I actually thought something was wrong with me. I guess I was so concerned with, and caught up in life; that I never stopped to smell the roses. I was doing things, which I normally would have enjoyed, but I felt empty, all the time. Whether I was waking up, going to sleep, eating breakfast, taking my dog for a walk, reading a book, or even watching tv, it all just felt empty. Then I realized, how am i supposed to experience a feeling of happiness if i'm not trying to be happy, and actively pursuing it? If i'm not wanting and trying to be happy, whether i'm consciously aware of it or not, I wont be happy. Simple as that. Tomorrow i'm going to take my dog for a walk, and i'm going to enjoy it. Why? what will make this time different from yesterday or the day before? The fact that I know that I want to. I'm not just going to run her around the block like a dog walking drone. I'm going to sit with her in the field until she wants to go home, and until then, I'm going to enjoy the clouds, the sky, the trees, the breeze, and the company of my dog, who likes to spend long periods of time sitting in the field beside my house doing nothing. Maybe she was trying to tell me something? "Richard, stop it. Take a break. You don't need to be doing something every second of every day. Stop, sit down and take in the wonderful things which you can experience while you are still alive." Maybe i'm just telling myself that, but what's it matter if i believe it. I suppose i'd rather be working towards my happiness than stressing over completing my homework, or making sure I've done a proper workout. I've strayed from my point a little so I'll just wrap things up. If you want to be happy, take a step back, realize what makes you happy, and then do it. Don't go through life on autopilot, and always have a damn good reason for why you are doing whatever you are doing.

And remember guys, life's too important to be wasted. It's the only one you get, and it's all that you get. Don't take it for granted.