I the idea of forever scares me. The idea of never worries me.

Forever would suck. How long will it be before everything loses its allure? before you get bored of everything? And then there's the law of supply and demand. If we have an infinite supply of life, then the value goes down infinitely. You'd have an eternity of worthlessness. With a finite demand of supply, you have a certain supply of demand. So life, no matter how short or long life is, it's still valuable.

Isn't that all that we've ever wanted? a life that's worth something? We dream of living forever but I don't think any of us have every really thought it through. You spend a couple minutes thinking of forever... see something wrong there? Whatever you'd do in heaven (and I'm not sure what there would be to do if sinning is out of the question...), or on earth, well, what happens when you've done it all? do you just start all over again? and how long until that gets old? How long until you're wishing that you could die?

Now, never... that's another thing. I don't like the idea of never. Never doing something... never visiting a tropical paradise, never finding someone amazing to share* my life with... But I can't help but wonder, will I ever cross paths with that person? Have we already crossed paths and we didn't know what we were worth to each other? And well, does that person even exist? will I never find them?... I think you get how I feel about never.

If only there were some compromise. If you only died after living out your life to what it should be... after doing all that you wanted to do... I suppose that this way, you have,

you have-

You have everything laid out before you. You'd have no way to screw up. You have no way to outlive the life that you're forced to live. You can neither descend nor ascend to anything that you are not. Where's the fun in that? I think that some of the exuberance of life comes from the fact that you can screw up, and that you can die without living your life to the fullest.

How boring would life be if you didn't have to worry about anything?

*note I say share and not spend. It's pretty much Simone de Bouvoir's view on love regarding mortality. Love is what it is because you're sharing your life, and you only have so much life to share.